Unfulfilled Dream!

                    Some dreams are soo good and pleasant to sit the whole day and daydream about..Thousands of thoughts come up with wide variety of imaginative ideas..itz like playing a game of putting the best things which we love to do and living with it..the way we want..but do these dreams really become part of reality..????
                    For some people Yes! and for some No!..Some people are born lucky they get all the things the way they want without much struggle..well struggle is essential in achieving some thing  but still even if they put some amount of effort in their struggle ; they do achieve what they want..But for some people if they put the exact amount of effort which the achievers do they still do not succeed..What lacks in these people which stops them for not achieving?? Luck?? Determination?? or just "It was not your day today" statement..
                 Sometimes even if they are on the verge of achieving their dream,certain circumstances come up which becomes a barrier between them and their dream..why does it happen?? Is God purposely not letting them achieve what they want or is it that the efforts are not enough?
                  In my case sometimes even if I put the required efforts still I don't acheive what I want..why why why do this happen? Why cant I get what I want? I know my life will never ever will go the way I wanted it to be..why will it not go? Destiny?? I hate my destiny..Whenever I fail in anything I believe that maybe God has purposely failed me for something better..but again is it my fault for not putting efforts or does God wants  me to fail again for something more nice..
             My life literally has no meaning..what is the use of studying late nights and giving exams when these things will not be in use in future..I wanted to be independent..make my own money..not because of any financial pressure but it was my dream to do that...My friends,sisters all are like that then why not me? What is the use of studying when that study will not come in use..why did I become educated when the knowledge Im gaining is just useless and waste of time..why cant I earn like how other girls do..why my destiny is so bad..is it really bad or Im just thinking it is bad..will I be happy in near future..?
   
                

Brown Eyes With Long Lashes!!

Well this blog is not rather true but a story kind off..

It starts with a boy and a gir studying computers together ..not teenagers though,.as such stories are only made by taking teenage
kids..well newly adults like 21,22,23 etc..as you guys know at this age we r not totally mature or
not totally immature..we like cartoons as well as news..we know what's wrong what's right as
well do wrong things knowing its wrong..
         So back to story now..it goes like this....
 Arwen was kind of ok type of girl with average looks and decent clothing..she had a best
friend named Annabel who was always with her..Annabel had a fiancee of whom she was crazy
about..so crazy that it sometimes irritated arwen..
  Arwen always hated such kind of things like a date or a boyfriend or a lover..for her these
things were mere useless and stupid..she always used to think that such things are jus
deception to our parents or cheating them.
 But then there was this boy Harry..Harry was cute wid too mischievous traits..he was the
chocolate boy of the class..he liked to do lots mischief in the class..he had light brown eyes wid
long lashes..he was quite conscious about his looks now and then..he liked to comment in the
class in the humorous way..he liked romantic stuffs and always wished he had a girlfriend like
his best friend...
      Harry was crazy about arwen..everysince they're college had started he started liking her..she
didn't liked him at all that time and whenver he used to try to talk wid her she used to ignore
him..for Arwen he was jus random guy who likes to flirt..but then as days passed by she started
knowing him better.
       Not matter how much mischief Harry did in the class he was always sincere with his studies
and too smart in maths and programming..by that way he was a favorite or teacher's pet of few
teachers...one of the teacher who used to stay in his neighborhood used to like him..and always
had an eye on him on what he is doing.. Maybe she liked him for her sister or something..
As time passed by arwen and Harry became good friends..arwen accepted the the fact and
he was not jus a random guy but a good person by heart..during the practicals Harry used to
sit with arwen and Annabel and with their one of the friend..it used to be a good time during the
practicals..Harry used to do all the coding and arwen and Annabel used to copy it from his
monitor..Arwen and Annabel were dumb in studies..well Annabel was always preoccupied
with her fiancee and arwen always had a hard time in understanding anything..annabel used
to understand what Harry felt about arwen and used to talk about it during the practicals
in a funny way and Harry used to deny it by saying what ever you Annabel is all rubbish and
sour..but deep down what she used to say he used to accept those facts and keep it with
him..days passed by exams came and went..then came the annual college event in which
everybody had to take part in the preparation and stuff Arwen was very much interested in it
decorating the college and so was Annabel..but Annabel as usual used to leave Arwen alone
and go with her fiancee there were moments between Arwen and Annabel when they used to
fight for this..but then Annabel used to have it in her own way..one day Arwen was alone doing
work when Harry came to her and asked  "did you have your lunch"..she had not because
everyone were too busy and even Anna was not there..she said "nope too busy for that and
with whom should I go?" he said " ok lets go and have then" arwen didn't feel anything and
casually said "okay".. After this Arwen became more close to Harry and started getting attracted
to him later they exchanged their numbers..harry had indirectly asked Arwen many times for
her number but she never gave a hint..because she knew if she would had then things would go
to far..but then she was not able to control herself because of attraction and gave it..she first
thought that Harry would treat her as a friend only but then he considered her more than that..

            Arwen's family had other plans for her..they had started planning it for from a year and
half..but the things were not sure yet.. Arwen always trusted her parents and went along
with what they had said..They had a boy planned for Arwen before she even know it..The boy was none other than her cousin Daniel.Daniel was once a handsome person who had a hot shot girlfriend..but then something happened to him and he was changed fully;he broke up and dedicated his life to his work , family and religion..Arwen had never thought in her life that this strange relationship would occur between her and Daniel and she was opposed to it..but for her parents he was the best..Daniel was serious and good hearted person which Arwen's parent liked a lot..For them and the other family members he was the suitable match for Arwen..But Arwen never gave a thought about it..and he was never ever in her mind or heart..But she had started to accept the fact to accept him..but she was also majorly attracted to Harry..after the exchange of numbers she went very close to him..there was not a day when she didnt speak with her..Harry and Arwen used to enjoy a lot chatting with each other till late night..Harry's cute flirt sort of talks used to amuse Arwen..Harry had asked Arwen out many times but Arwen never went..she always had a thought in mind that she is cheating on her parents by secretly chatting with Harry though never was nothing as such as affair between them..Harry also never went ahead with her because even he had that feeling in him that Arwen would never belong to him..it was his dream to take Arwen out on date but it never happened..Arwen also wanted to go but she had such circumstances that never let her go..
                       Semester ended Summer started..Arwen was too much into Harry..she was always used be lost in his thoughts..Harry was doing his internship and Arwen used to wait for him to come back home so that she could talk with him..but something had happened to Harry..he had started to feel that this could not go on..One day or another Arwen would be someone else's wife..and she could do nothing about it..
              Harry thought that it would be best for them if they stop talking to each other..by this they would get time to move on and start thinking about another person..it was hard for Arwen..though she knew it was wrong it was just not easy for her to just let go off Harry..Harry too didnt wanted this to happen but then this was written in their destiny..Harry asked Arwen when should we stop talking Arwen just didnt wanted to and asked one more week..She had thought in this one week she would go according to Harry..and do whatever which would make Harry happy..because she knew how much broken he was inside of just letting her go and she was not able to do anything about it..she felt guilty of not doing anything and of breaking Harry's heart but who would go against her parents..Her parents too thought the best of her and Daniel was best for them for her..she couldnt go against them for she owed them her whole life..
                                      Finally they stopped talking..Arwen missed Harry..but them missing was not an option..she had to become strong and forget everything..it was jus 3 months they had been so close to each other and Arwen would cherish the memories which they had spent..it was not friendship not an affair but something very special..which they sacrificed for their future..One thing Arwen always regretted in the end..and that was their secret "Date" and she will never stop admiring those "Light Brown Eyes With Long Lashes".

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